I have been meaning to write like always but I could not have more shit going on. I am not going to get into any details but I am seriously fucking stressed out right now. Combine that with the fact that I am trying to lay back on smoking which is going bad and good at the same time. All in all, I am waiting for this little period of crap to pass my by. Due to how busy I have been I have only played poker one day this entire month and that was today.
As for March, another bullshit month of playing poker. I played 65K hands on Cake and I lost $120. Pretty much every day was the same. I would sit down and within 15 minutes I would be down 3-4 buyins. I would spend the rest of my session trying to recover my losses. I probably lost 20 days for the entire month. That probably makes me a losing player.
I had 5 different 10 buyin downswings because I am such a great player. My account fluctuated between $1210-$1910. I got up to $1900 3 different times but could never get passed that number. I also fell to $1200 3 different times. My only real big upswing came in about 5 minutes when I came up about $400. It was crazy. But of course I had to lose that over the next 3 days.
I lost to 1 outers five times and gave one outer bad beats 3 times.
I lost 3 400BB pots (two were set over set) and I won 1 400BB pot.
I made $873 in rakeback and $150 in extra bonuses.
As for pokerstars, this site is such a fucking joke. I don't know why I am wasting my time on here. I truly feel its rigged for certain people. I get knocked out of every tournament by either a bad beat, a cooler or I lose a big flip.
I played in 30 tournaments and cashed in only 5. Not once did I even come close to getting something worthwhile.
I watch these "great" players who win big all the time and I see the same shit over and over again. They constantly shove all in and when they actually get called they always have some bullshit hand like J 7 and they suck out every fucking time. It would be easy to win 100K in one shot if I could suck out every time I got it in bad. But like always I almost never get rewarded when I get it in bad.
My account on Pokerstars went from $1202-$870.
When my account gets down to $500 because I have absolutely no expectation of getting a huge cash since I lose so often when I get it in good and never give bad beats I am just going to cash the rest of it out.
On Stars I lost $332.
On Cake I made $903.
In total I made $571. What a great month
I am seriously tired of all these 65K hand bad runs. When am I going to get my 20K hand upswing. Seriously?
I have come to the conclusion that poker will never get me anywhere in my life because I constantly have months like this one. Therefore, I am just going to supplement my income. I have also learned that the worse a player is the more they are likely to suck out. I cannot tell you how often I watch someone catch a 2 outer on the river on an all in only to just dump it all to a regular 3 hands later. So basically I am constantly losing to the regulars w/o actually having to play against them. When am I going to get rewarded for how stupid the fish play?
To start the month my accounts are as follows.
Cake: $2475
Stars $870
How about one time I have a really sick month. How about a $7000 cash in a tourament? How about a 30 buyin upswing playing my cash games?
It seems like I breakeven most the time which makes me think that I am nothing more then a breakeven player even though I get it in good on my all ins almost every time.
